29 May 2009

Ta-Da!

Well it took me 2years, 10months and 16 days but I finished them, I finished Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows last night at 5 to midnight! I'm so happy!

I'll miss him, not reading him at 3'clock in the morning when I cant sleep because its getting so good!


But my wonderful brother sent me Beedle The Bard so I'm going to read that after :)

6 May 2009

Why do I make my life so glum?!

24 Apr 2009

Cant wait!

I love Zooey Deschanel! Okay I admitted it. She is actually amazing, I would love to be her, shes so quirky and cute!

But her new film, well she has two because shes a busy bee, looks amazing!!



but Joseph Gordon-Levitt hasn't changed since 10 Things I Hate About You. Which was such a good film but it was 10 years ago, and he looks exactly the same!! BUT don't you think he has a smidgen of Heath Ledger about him?! But it comes out on 30th October this year. So in the mean time her other new film which comes out on the 19th of June to looks so good too!



et tu? :):)

3 Apr 2009

Throw a penny in the well!

Throw a penny in the well for me tomorrow
Throw a penny in the well for Harry Potter and his book comes to an end soon
Throw a penny in the well that reading tickets may magically appear on my doormat
Throw a penny in the well that stars do carry wishes and that mine have just got lost in the post



Throw a penny in the well because my favorite water colours are running out.

2 Apr 2009

Little past my bed time...

I'm up late doing college work tonight. Why is it that one minute we had no deadlines and no pressure or stress, a moment later like a smack in the face when you walk into a windowed door you've got so much work and no time to do it!!

We had a lecture on Monday about this report we had to do, we've know about it for 2 weeks but because we couldn't start it until we had done the research and started making it, (and we only have 2 days elected to make the dam thing anyway) I hadn't started it. So during this lecture the lecturer said

"1000 word report due Friday before 3pm... but you know you can do it on Wednesday."

Can you imagine my face I was like 1000 WORDS! DUE FRIDAY!! DONE IN A DAY!!!

But I suppose I did get her back...a bit... I asked her a question and she said

"Ooh! no! I was hoping no body would ask me that, I don't know the answer!?"

I felt kinda embarrassed at the time, but saw the funny side soon after :)

So consequently I am up this late doing my sketch book because I haven't done it today because of this flipping report! and to top it all off I've actually just remembered I've got to write up a bit for the last unit which is being assessed on Monday too.

Why is life so stressful. Also I really don't want summer to come now its here, I don't know why, I just cant be bothered with it all at the moment.

Nighty night!

22 Mar 2009

Please come with me.

I have no clue why but recently I just cant be happy! I'm just sad and its turning summer and I should be happy but just cant!!

Monday morning was sunny and really warm and I was very happy then but once I got to the train and into college I just wanted to go home and cry. I decided to go for 3D when choosing our specialisms, and today was the first day in our groups, but this however led me to being a fish out of water and being by myself and having to find new friends in people I recognised but didn't know. The girl I have been getting closer and closer to in the group before has move to fashion, but with about 5 people we knew and were good friends with, but she didn't seem happy with the move either.

Tuesday we all went to Rochester on a trip thingy to see some historical thing (good description I know!) and I was walking with a boy who I was really good friends with before and he just left me and disappeared, when we were going in, so I was left to walking around the museum by myself. I walked past a group of friends that in the first term I was really close to, but now I just seem really distant. I don't find anything they do funny when everyone else laughs and they all go out to house parties and gigs and just don't ask me. Yes I did distance myself, so maybe it is my own fault but I cant help but thinking they didn't like me much either. I sit and talk to them on the train, talk to them when I see then in passing but just don't sit with them at lunch or break anymore and now I think I have lost them for ever, just because I sit with other friends at other times.

But last week they gave indications that they went out and had a take away but they were talking about it to the group of us and I was like "AM I NOT HERE OR SOMETHING!?" then this Friday there were going to one of theirs houses and it was just like we have never either spoken to each other before and that we didn't know each other!

And to top it all off, Ive texted my best friend from school the other day and she hasn't got back to me, yes she may not have any credit and yes she may be busy with revision but she has my bloody home number she could call that or speak to me on facebook!

Am I just being really childish and pathetic, that some people are just not talking and wanting to be with me. Its just I have never felt more alone ever.

15 Mar 2009

My boy builds coffins

J' adore this song

My boy builds coffins with hammers and nails
He doesn't build ships, he has no use for sails
He doesn't make tables, dresses or chairs
He can't carve a whistle cause he just doesn't care

My boy builds coffins for the rich and the poor
Kings and queens them all knocked on his door
Beggars and liars, gypsies and thieves
They all come to impact he's so eager to please

My boy builds coffins he makes them all day
But it's not just for work and it isn't for play
He's made one for himself
One for me too
One of these days he'll make one for you

My boy builds coffins for better or worse
Some say its a blessing, some say its a curse
He fits them together in sunshine or rain
Each one is unique, no two are the same

My boy builds coffins and i think it's a shame
That when each ones been made, he can't see it again
He crabs everyone with love and repair
Then its thrown in the ground and it just doesn't fit

My boy builds coffins he makes them all day
But it's not just for work and it isn't for play
He's made one for himself
One for me too
One of these days he'll make one for you

,Florence and the Machine


It's kinda stuck in my head, bit sad really.